Starting over!!

My education as an artist is starting over. I'm going back to square one. Back to the beginning. Back to the birth. Back all the way to what made me wanna be an artist. somewhere along the way I lost who I am and what I wanted to be. I became the puppet of a school where they used my talent to fuel their own ideals and philosophies. I allowed them to lower my standards. To hide what i love. To push away the artist I am inside and the kind of artist I went to school to become. Today in class I was illustrating and creating and imagining. My painting teacher, in all her knowledge, asked me what i was doing. I told her I was illustrating. She turned up her nose in disgust and said "so the cartoonist in you wins." I wanted to tell her "Fuck yeah the cartoonist wins!!" because for to long I let him lose when a cartoonist, an illustrator, a concept artist, and a master class artist is what i want to be...so that is what i'm choosing to be. Not a fine artist, not a minimalist, not a nabi-ist, not a conceptualist, not a sculpture, or an artist who can justify himself but can't draw to save his life...what I am is an artist that can put food on the table with his art, not an artist that has to teach to make ends meet but one that teaches to pass on his knowledge and make the next generation better...what I am is an illustrator! what I am is a cartoonist! what i am is concept artist! what i am is a commercial artist! WHAT I AM IS THE ARTIST I WANT TO BE!